Ephesians 2: "made us alive together with Christ", "by grace you have been saved"
The process of transformation is life-long but there are freeze-frames where the change is strong, poignant, remarkable.
Today a client came with held breath as she fought back tears yet as she allowed herself to settle in the space she seemed to regain focus just enough to enjoy reflecting on some of her journey to becoming. We talked about the solstice marking a pivot point between old and new but that it was helpful to take some time to sit in a state of grace, not judging the past or setting expectations for the future but simply recognising oneself in the moment.
When i then became the client later in the day my therapist and i reflected on the year. She asked me what i would change if i lived the year again. I thought about this and then replied that i wouldn't necessarily choose to live it again but neither would i change any of it, it felt necessary and there have been some incredibly wonderful times as well. It would almost be disrespectful to want to change what is. I have learnt so much about myself and i hope and pray that, however raw i might feel, i am allowing myself to be made alive in the words of Ephesians, becoming more real (naturally the Velveteen Rabbit narrative leaps to mind!).
So what is my freeze-frame moment of the year?
Standing topless in the centre of the sand labyrinth Gail designed on a deserted stretch of beach near Tyninghame. Hot currents of air blew across us every few minutes, magical, surprising, wonderful! And that moment of "exposure"? Amazingly liberating!
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