"Awake You Sleepers"

I feel as if i've been snoozing, drifting in a semi-conscious haze, never quite waking, never quite sleeping.  I dare not "switch off" yet never quite fully alert.
What am i talking about?  My sacred self, my spiritual life.  Since leaving MCC Edinburgh there has been a hiatus, sometimes painful as a hernia, sometimes blissfully calm and peaceful.  From a regular time of community worship which i was often responsible for creating and leading suddenly there was nothing.  I stopped any form of daily contemplation other than occasionally listening to the day's "Pray As You Go" and i enjoyed having weekends back in my life!  But i wasn't settled.  I finally got myself along the road to Meeting for Worship a few times and, once my course at New College began, i realised that my sacred self was actually fairly alive and well, just a bit dazed and confused.

As part of my coming to full consciousness again and yet hopefully in a new way i am keeping a daily journal through Advent and will blog as often as i can as a form of commitment to myself and to you.

I am reading "Advent and Christmas" by Thomas Merton and the title for each day will be used as the title for the blog in the hope that i will blog daily...  You may have noticed that this is being written on December 4th though so this might not actually be achievable but it is my aim.  Revising needs to be my priority but, without tapping into the Source regularly, i know i will not remain awake and will instead, in the words of Merton, end up "sleeping at the switch" of my alarm clock.